And the answer is......

Do you ever get over a true love? I mean really get over it? After you have both moved on, start doing other things, seeing other people, do you forget about the past love?

Do the rules allow for you to miss them while dating someone else?

Do you compare new loves to the old love?

Why does the ex always get the "One that got away status"?

I don't know. I'm having a hard time figuring this one out. Accepting that someone doesn't want to be with you can be devastating. For me, it was and is still a shock.

Some days i don't even think about him. And that happens because i would be involved in doing a bunch of things that take my mind off of him. Other days, it's like he's standing right in my damn face and will not fucking move!! Im glad gas is as high as it is that way i'm not tempted to just drive by his house to see if he's home! OMG! I'm definitely not trying to reach stalker status.

But i have talked to him a few times. And my heart was racing. I was all tongue-tied. Why? Because the love is still there. It's like he's a drug. Not quite lethal but 1 hit can have you addicted and possibly needing rehab. And he probably doesn't even know it. Or maybe he does. Doesn't matter. It is what it is. Mais je táime toujours.

My mom asked me about the ex. I just brushed it off and gave some ole simple answer like he's fine. And she actually said:"Do you want me to call him and talk to him? He'll listen to me." HUH?? WHAT?? I told her she better not! For a minute there she sounded like i was being bullied on the playground at school and she was going to call the bully's parents and tell and fix it!! Don't be fooled though--i did pause a good while before i answered her!! I love my mom. Anything for her baby right? Well her baby doesn't need her this time. I'm grown now. So this grown up pain that i'm feeling is something i can deal with on my own. No mommy to the rescue here.

I know millions of other men and women are going through a break-up just as i am. And finding your way after such a thing can be a task. I know i'll bounce back eventually. I believe i'm getting back to my old self slowly but surely. And i'll look back at some of these posts and will shake my head at my thoughts. Maybe even laugh. I'm laughing now. Probably because you are too.