I was just sitting here thinking that in a little over a month and 1\2 i will be turning 34.

And i was thinking if getting older was bothering me b\c :

1. I would be 34.
2. And single.
3. I would like to have another child but obviously i can't do it without a lover\spouse.
4. Maybe i don't want anymore kids b\c Autism is real and they have no clue what is causing it. or no real desire to investigate what many of us believe is causing autism.
5. I don't know when i'll fall in love again.
6. And i want to.
7. I wasted so many years in a directionless fantasy.
8. So many.
9. Is marriage for me?
10. And if so, would i ever get married?

The only answer i could come up with was NO! some of these things don't make me cringe.

but you figure out which 2 DO bother me!