It's me!!!

Back at last! I have stepped away from this whole blogging thing because...quite frankly...my life was just getting too out of control and i clearly didn't want to blog about it.

But here i am.

again.

Blogging.about.life.

well...let's see...

After i broke up with the ex(lets call him John) , i started seeing this 1 guy(let's call him Mike). he was nice and everything but honestly--he was a mama's boy so i knew that thing wouldn't go far. I mean so much so that his mom kept calling him one day that i was over there as if she had a problem with it! problem number 1.

We never got to spend alot of time with each other b'cuz he worked 2 jobs. Hello--isn't that the same shit that John had a problem with? Time that is. problem # 2.

Problem # 3--he was just too damn soft for me. I'm not saying that i'm looking for a Chris Brown type of brotha who will beat me down. I'm just looking for someone that i feel i won't have to fight his battles for him!!!

But the reason we stopped seeing each other wasn't really b'cuz of any of those things...it was b'cuz John pulled a move that....fucked up Mike's thinking.

John sent me flowers for a whole week straight and when Mike found out..he pretty much dumped me! lol oh yes it was! I had to call John and tell him look stop doing this because it's just not right. beautiful. but please stop. and he didn't know that i worked with Mike either !!

So of course i was angry because i'm thinking damn, John pulling out all the stops to try and get me back. I mean he was trying to take me out to dinner. the movies. calling me. You know the game. And i was like look, i can't do that. I never said why til i actually told him i was seeing Mike. And it hurt to tell him that but i have never been about cheating on anyone and i wasn't going to start.

So jumping forward, needless to say, I am back with John! LOL!! A whole entire year went by and we were free to do our own separate things and look where we ended up! Back together! I have never, ever gotten back together with an ex. But i decided to give it another try. Am i scared? yes. I'm everything that you could possible be when you are trying to give something another chance. And it's funny because some of my friends said that they were always rooting for me and John to get back together. I was too. But it had to be right. We had to be willing to make it work.

And i believe this time we are.