Still healing.

Saw the ex on Sunday and Monday. Just to tie up some loose ends between us.

I swear he still looks good as hell. I wanted to do the horizontal mambo with him.

But, because certain unnamed individuals would kill me--i just tied up those loose ends and went on home.

Why couldn't he be ugly? Why does he have to be so damn sexy? And making this really, really easy for me?

Damn,Damn, Damn!!

But i did kiss him. And it felt so great. But i knew that it had to end there. I wished him well, told him i would always love him and left. And because we had talked previously, he was ok with this ending too.

That was really hard to do but i didn't cry. I didn't feel it was necessary. I think all the praying is really helping.

I've been just asking for guidance.

For Maturity.

For Acceptance.

For Forgiveness.

I'm getting there. Every day is a process. I'm smiling more.

And someone asked me out on a date. omg!! i'm nervous...